WARNING – if you don’t like blood, don’t look at this image!
I’m currently sitting in the A&E department at 7am, holding my finger together as I’ve sliced through it with a Stanley blade. Note to self: don’t do DIY at 6am if you’re not awake!!
So I’m sitting here bored, in pain and annoyed I’m not still working on my kitchen after being up so early, so I thought, I know, I’ll write on my blog.
When I started this blog it was to share my journey, show people my struggles so they would know we’re not all perfect and to share my successes to show it is possible.
I wrote it to keep me accountable, to be my ‘diary’ and to be the novel that I always wanted to write but never did.
I wrote it to show others great ideas I had found, useful information and stuff I thought people would need.
So as you can see, I had lots of reasons for writing this, but still I’ve stumbled.
I was always told that to succeed in anything, you had to have a reason, a want and need to do something or you wouldn’t bother, you’d give up. But I have that want and desire to do this, so why wasn’t I doing it?
I’m currently reading a book called “Organising her life – how my journey can help you declutter your life” by Laura Souders. In the opening chapters, it explains how she was doing a job she no longer loved and hadn’t for years.
It made me think…
I’m not happy. I have moments of happiness, of joy, but generally I’m not happy, I’m depressed. This is why I’m not pursuing anything I want because I think it will be short lived and I don’t want to fail again.
I want so much, things for my family, for our future, but mainly I want to work in property.
The realisation that I’m not doing what I love and that it’s depressing me was enlightening.
We plod along, earning a living, but what we should be doing is running, jumping, living life and not settling for a plodding existence. Work is a major part of our lives so let’s make it something that we love to do.
So I’m making plans, we had already decided that both my husband and I were going to sit down to go through what we want, I going to make that happen today and then our 5 year plan to get there.
I’ve decided all this as I’m stuck in A&E with nothing to do, so I urge you all to think, to take some time out to REALLY think about what you want, what makes you happy, and then work towards making that your job in one way or another.
Here’s to an amazing life xxx